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What talent do you have that you wish more people would recognize?

It's more like, "What talent do I have that I wish people would forget about?"......And that's dance! I've been dancing since I was a little girl and now that I'm grown (25), I'm not ‘feeling it’ anymore.

I actually have to dance this Sunday at my church and I’m really  not feeling that! I will consider it my farewell performance. I was kind of pressured, and I felt kinda bad - because the commitment level of the dancers was, well, nonexistent. My friend is temporarily taking over the dance ministry – which was dwindling away anyway. The girl who’s usually in charge just had a baby and she has having a hard time getting people to get involved and stay dedicated. The last thing I ever want to do again is dance, but maybe it’s just a phase.

Maybe I got used to dancing and teaching for so long that I just don’t want to do it anymore. I don’t even want to see a dance performance. I’m just not excited about dance like I used to be. And all these feelings could go away someday; but for right now, I can’t stand it and that’s just how I feel.

I love writing, and my ultimate dream is to be a successful published Author, Playwright, and Screenwriter. I wish people would see that and forget about dance. Dance used to be my heart, but it’s not anymore. Writing is my passion, and beyond a shadow of a doubt, I know it's what God wants me to do with the life He's given me – and it’s something I know I’ll never get tired of!

I think I’m the only person who knows how serious I am about writing. I think everyone else may see it as a “pipe-dream.” I know when I hold my first published novel in my hands they will know otherwise. I know when they do a double take in the bookstore, they’ll see my name on the bottom of my novel and start freaking out. They’ll call me and scream, “I didn’t know you were serious, I thought you were still trying to find yourself!”

Well, I’ve found me. I’ve discovered who I am. I’m a writer; not a dancer or dance teacher, not a Customer Service Representative, not a bank teller, not an office clerk, not a food service worker, not a Girl Scouts camp counselor, not even a blogger.

I’m a creative writer of fiction; not an ad writer, not a company blog writer, not a business letter writer, not an accounts receivables letter writer, not a thank you card writer, not an email writer.

I’m thinking of customizing a t-shirt. I’ll have the simple words, “I’m a Writer” written across it. It’ll be a black t-shirt with the brightest yellow lettering there is. I want people to know. I need people to understand. I’m desperate to reach my goals but it’s hard when people don’t fully believe in you, or don’t understand you, or don’t hardly care.

It’s hard when you’re afraid to even broadcast your dreams the way you want to because the naysayers will be quick to tell you that you need something to fall back on. “Stay in school,” they’ll say. Well I don’t have time for disbelief from other people. I have enough trouble mustering up the strength to believe in myself. It's even harder mustering up the strength to have faith and trust in God! I don’t need anyone sitting around telling me I can’t make it. God's given me this vision - I already know I will! In the end I’m going to fight harder because of that; but I still don’t need the discouragement. And I don’t want it.

But I'm done, LOL...I always tend to over-explain. In my books I need to ditch that habit. But in my blogs...I have free reign to express all areas of my thoughts and opinions, LOL.

*Peace*